yc’s reflection

i feel like i am giving up. giving up everything that I have put my heart to…. i don’t want to do it anymore.. i don’t feel like i can do it anymore. the truth is, i am giving up. i don’t want to play the game anymore. I want it to be normal. I want it to be easy. I want to stop feeling like that. I want to stop feeling alone. I want to stop having to cry at night. I want to stop having to pretend that everything will be ok. I want to stop thinking or knowing that things are ok when I don’t know. I don’t know if it will work. I don’t know if anyone will care. I don’t care if people are annoyed with me. Why is it that I always have to try so hard? Why do I have to be the grown up? Why do I have to cope? Why do I have to do all these?

i want to leave.